Sleepless Night

I couldn't sleep last night. In all reality, that doesn't happen very often for me. I am lucky. I am usually so tired I sleep pretty soundly. Thankfully. But last night I was plagued with all kinds of worries. I couldn't help myself. I was drowning in my worries. On Saturday, I had a Mom point blank ask me what I would do if prop 8 doesn't pass. What would I do about school? I thought all about how Abby was complaining it hurt to go to the bathroom. I couldn't help wondering if I am doing something wrong as a Mom if I have yet another child with a UTI. How can that be? And I thought about how we were told we can't refinance our house because the market is so down that we might actually owe more on it than it is worth. Even though we put a consider down payment on it. How can that be? We have a year and a half to figure that one out. It is amazing how your mind goes wild in the darkness of the night. But the thing that worried me the most was my interview with the bishop yesterday when he asked me if I would be the Young Women's president. HOW CAN THAT BE? Now that WORRIED me. YIKES! Overwhelmed is hardly the words to describe my feelings at this moment. I loved being the secretary. I was behind the scenes of sort. Now I am responsible for all of these sweet beautiful young women. I am excited to work with them. They are fabulous girls. I know that I will certainly learn more from them then they will from me. I do wonder how a bishop or a stake president or even an apostle get over feelings of inadequacy? I should know. They rely on the Lord. There are times when I feel like am not even standing on my own, I am leaning so much. Now is one of those times.